DIRTY POLITICS

pelik je...tetiba ada orang gado pasal blog aku..
tak ada angin and guruh..tetiba je blog aku jadi tempat perdebatan sama DSAI salah atau tak..
gomen salah atau tak..
well..like the anonymous said...this is place to express themself..
but sometime..we just want to win more and more..
we dont want to be on the loose site..

so to make the anonymous mouth shut....
i decide to not comment more about the title...
after all, i feeling like i want to delete the post...
OMG...i hate it so much....
since when we are not aloud to discuss our thought...

well, he/she got their point..maybe my point of view because i was around those people who PRO DSAI...and maybe he/she is PRO the other side..
well, on my Mukaddimah Pertama..
i said that i wanna pick POLITICS as one of my subject to write...
but it turn out this ugly..
so...im throwing out the subject...
this is because..i realize...this country have two big politics...
and as i said in FB.....i dont like politics...its a dirty road...
and i can get dirty...no matter how i said DSAI is true...if 99% of Malaysian says he's wrong..
he is still wrong..

my latest oppinion... DSAI...just give it up...
i know this is ur "PERJUANGAN"...and believe me..if u are true...everything will be expose one day,,
if not...u are just wrong as other...
we are human..and no one perfect...even the commentors...the leaders...or even the the people..
even me...dont act like we are so perfect...

im smiling while i write this post..
coz im so hoping..that misterious anonymous or what so ever...
can shut their mouth...im no longer will write about POLITICIAN...
my friends are true...only the stronger will have the guts to face people like this..
me..im just a simple gurl...who is tired with all the "conspiracy" or the "truth" behind
this drama that MALAYSIA gomen put in "NOW SHOWING.."...

i rather choose to look at blockbuster movie from outside country...
coz, eventhough their race is not muslim/malay/good..
but they do have a better honoured when it comes to respect people..
well, what can i say... the more that i write..the more that suck people will fire me back.
so this is it...my last topic for this country dirty politics...

adios...

Kisah Novel Cinta

semua perempuan kalau boleh nak kan kisah hidup mereka seindah kisah novel cinta.
ya...semua perempuan inginkan bahagia..
tapi berapa kerat je yang betul2 dapatkan kebahagiaan tu...
cinta sesuatu yang luar biasa..ia datang tanpa diundang..dan pergi tanpa disuruh.
apa yang ada didalam novel cinta...pasti ramai yang pernah membaca novel cinta tahu..
apa isi kandungan novel cinta. sebanyak novel cinta yang aku beli.
semua isi nya adalah agak sama...

1.berkahwin tanpa cinta.
2.duduk berjauhan dan berenggang....
3.suci hingga tahun ke 5...
4.dan akhirnya sedar diri dicintai dan bahagia selamanya..

macam mana nak tuka pemikiran pembaca kita termasuk diri aku..
aku selalu di buai angan-angan indah bila aku membaca novel cinta.
memang pelik.apabila imaginasi menguasai diri.
stiap kali aku membaca novel cinta. aku akan tersenyum sendirian kadang2.
mungkin orang akan kata aku gila..tapi itulah penangan novel cinta.

setelah lama aku tak menulis di blog ni.
tanganku menari sekali lagi. kali ini topik ku novel cinta.
sebab aku sedar, bila aku mula membaca novel cinta..aku akan mula berangan.
hidupku akan menjadi seperti novel yang ku baca.

aku percaya..penulis novel-novel yang aku pernah baca..punya bayangan untuk mendapatkan
kisah seperti yang ditulis oleh dirinya. tapi tak semua yang dapat. semua lelaki yang
ditulis adalah asas kepada lelaki sempurna yang susah untuk dijumpai.
kalau ada pun..mungkin lelaki homoseksual. sebab tu aku lebih selesa berkawan dengan lelaki
yang boleh dikatakan lembut.mereka lebih memahami hati perempuan dari lelaki tulen.
hahahha..kelakar kan statement aku..tapi itulah hakikat..nak buat macam mana...

lebih-lebih lagi bila aku baca dalam novel, lelaki2 yang ada semuanya bersifat gentleman,
murah hati dan kadang kala je ego. dan paling best membaca novel cinta ni..kita dapat melihat perangai lelaki ego...tapi dalam diam mencintai wanitanya sepenuh hati...
adakah lelaki macam tu?mungkin juga. cuma lelaki tak pandai nak express diri mereka.

well...apa2 pun...tak semua yang dapat menjalani kisah novel cinta.
tak semua dalam hidup ni akan indah selamanya.
well, kawan aku ada quote...and the quote is quite good. she said,
"the best way to know a girl is when the guy is in the hardest time. and the best way to know a guy is when the guy is rich.."
betul jugak apa yang dia kata...masa paling elok utk uji perempuan tu perempuan baik.
adalah masa lelaki tu susah..sebab kalau perempuan tu bukan perempuan baik..
dia akan angkat kaki...that's show she's just into you when u have money..
not when you are not...
and masa paling elok utk uji lelaki tu lelaki baik adalah masa lelaki tu senang. sebab masa tu akan nampak true colour lelaki tu..sebab most of lelaki kaya...lupa diri..and cepat je nak tambah quota yang ada...terukkan..?

so...judge yourself and judger people that you love..does u deserve him/her...and does he/she deserve you...
take time to remember why you first fall in love..
after all we do want a love life like a novel love story...

the end.

COACH UNTUK WANITA SAHAJA...

penat-penat je KTM buat coach yang khas utk wanita sahaja..
still ada lelaki yang memang degil atau saje gatal masuk coach wanita.
susah nak komen...

sama ada lelaki2 di malaysia tak paham bahasa melayu/english..
atau diorang mmg giler perhatian..
yela...dh masuk coach wanita kan..mstila rmai pmpn pndg...
susah gak orang giler glamor ni..
huhuhuhu...

aku ni ada la dua tiga citer tentang lelaki salah masuk coach pmpn..
sume ada alasan yang baik punye...
ada yang kena sound..ada pulak yang sound balik..
dalam kes aku..lau laki tu duk sebelah ak..
mmg aku sound terus..
jd nyampah pulak ngan laki tak paham bahasa ni...


kisah 1>>>>
aku dok tengah beratur time tu nak tunggu tren datang.
sbuk2 bratur...ada pulak laki potong dari belah kiri dengan harapan leh masuk coach pmpn.
aku pn ap lg...rasa bengang tak hengat punye...
leh pulak dia potong ak cmtu je...
rasa nak cekik pn ada..tp aku berlgak kool.
bile tren nak menghampiri tmpt ak beratur tu...
ada sorang pmpn tegur. "bang ni coach utk pmpn"..laki tu buat muka bodo je trus masuk..
duduk pulak tu...memang tak btul otak dia...
dgn muke meluat...aku pn duduk dekat tempat yang kosong.
tak lama lepas tu sampai kat stesen Kuala Lumpur.
ada polis naik..bile polis halau bru nak belah..bengap giler..
tapi ak tak salahkan dia...orang asing kot....susah tol orang tak phm tgk sign..
its ok la lau tak phm apa yang ditulis.
tapi takkan la smpai gmbr pmpn pkai skirt pn tak pham jugak..

citer 2 >>>
aku baru balik dari office time tu...
aku naik tren yang dijadulkan on 08.46 malam...okla kan...
pergh..pnat2 brator ni..ada la sekumpulan student lahanat ni...
leh potong aku...
shial btul...dahla rmai...ak balik dengan officer ak time tu..
officer ak dh cop tempat tuk ak...tp budak 3 ekor ni leh skip and duduk tmpt tu..
takpe..that is not the main point.point ak kt sini. sbelah tmpt duduk budak 3 ekor ni duk.
ada sorang mamat. muke skit punye hensem. tp ap gune hensem klu buta huruf ye tak?
pergh..dia boleh buat bodoh and talking on the phone...dh rmai aku rasa..
pmpn yang buat muka and pndang plik.tp dia buat bodo je..bila dia habis on the phone..
tiga student poyo ni knon nak tegur la yang dia salah naik coach...
aku pn agak happyla ada orang yang sudi menegur..
ahh sudah...berkenalan pulak dia kat situ..
siap berbual mesra lagi...ai...laki pn stu amek kesempatan..
pmpn pn melayan...mentang-mentanglah laki jual lesung pipit dia yang tak berapa tajam tu..
dah cair...susah betul kalau camtu..patut maki je..suh pindah coach..
klu ada polis or orang ktm mmg dh kne maki dah..orang buat sign merata2 pn still tak phm2 lg.
at last.laki tu tak turun langsung...smpai la sg buloh..baru dia turun dengan student2 tu,...
malu la tu...takde orang nak backup dia lagi...aduhai...

kisah 3>>>
satu pagi tu aku otw nak gi ot..hari sabtu la..
so aku amek tren 06.23 pun still kosong lagi..kalau hari keje jgn harapla...
aku naik and ak dpt tmpt duduk fav ak...
ak dh ready nk smbung tdo balik dalam tren.lena jugakla untuk 5 min pertama...
pastu smpai je sg buloh...ad satu kapel..and sorang uncle masuk coach pmpn..
aku mula la tak selesa..bile territory kita di masuki orang..mula rasa tak sedap nk tdo...
aku pn buat muke meluat...mak cik2 yang ada pn asyik pndg2..tp dorang tak phm bahasa...
smpai kat kepong sentral..kne maki ngan abang ktm....ni coach pmpn ni...
kapel dua ekor yang aku suspect not originally from malaysia ni dh blur..
lelaki tu dah bangun dah...nk belah coach open. tp uncle tu kata..tak payah ikot ckp dia..
buang masa aja...cewah...ak ingt dorang ni educated sgt...tak rupanya....
so dorang pn stayla dalam tu..uncle tu turun kt kepong..and kapel sengal tu turun dekat putra..

susah2 ktm buat sign besar2...announce hari2 tiap2 ms...
still tak dengar kata...still nk ikot perangai bodo sombong dia tu..
tolongla sedar...klu ktm nk buat coach pmpn tu..
dat mean pmpn jela leh naik...klu rmai tak puas hati pmpn naik coach terbuka..
aku suggest ktm buat...satu coach pmpn..satu coach laki...and lagi satu coach couple...
kn snang...takdela cmni jadinya...
the main point is..rakyat malaysia memang suke langgar peraturan..
aku rasa kalau ada denda masuk coach pmpn br diorang tak msuk agknye..
tapi tak jugak...denda RM 30 kalau tak de tiket pn diorang tak kisah..
ni kan denda masuk coach pmpn...

sekarang ni pmpn macam dh tak kisah laki masuk coach wanita...
aku tak blame dorang..aku pn kadang2 takut nk sound orang2 ni..
sbb nanti kite yang di sound balik..
kita yang betul..kita kena sound...plik je...
so..lelaki..tolong pakai skirt lau nak msuk coach wanita...thats all..

mukadimah pertama

pergh...
dah lama tanganku tak menari di atas keyboard utk menulis di blog ku ini...
bile nmpk ad kwn main blog..ttb hati nk start active with blog balik..
hehehehe..cmne tu?
well...tanganku juga perlukan exercise...
so...petang yang bosan ni..aku buat tangan aku bersenam di atas keyboard utk mengupdate
blog yang dh agak lama ku tinggalkan.

bukan senang nak jadi pemblog yang setia.
kalau ada idea...boleh la nak menulis..
lagipun aku bukan jenis yang pandai menulis.
ntah apa ak tulis kang pon aku tak tau...
aku tak nak viewers bosan dengan kisah hidup aku...

menulis blog ni perlukan topic untuk didiskusi..
setakat menulis blog untuk citer psal diri sendiri.
semua orang pun boleh rasanya.
tapi buat masa ni aku takde topik hangat untuk didiskusikan..
maybe kalau nanti2 ada topic hangat..aku akan buat tanganku menari lagi.

blog...blog...blog...
ape blog ni...?blog tempat orang mengekspreskan diri mereka.
bagi yang bijak pandai...blog tempat mereka melampiaskan idea kreatif mereka..
bagi yang kurang bijak...jadila macam aku..merapu tak tentu pasal.
apa pun..semua ada objektif masing-masing untuk memiliki blog...

setelah agak lama aku tak aktif dalam arena blogging ni.
aku rasa aku nak aktif balik.
kalau dulu aku tulis benda yang berkaitan hidup aku..
sekarang aku nak menulis tentang isu semasa.
tak kira lah politik, seni, antarabangsa atau apa-apa sahaja.
aku nak jadikan blog ni sebagai tempat aku meluahkan pendapat aku tentang topic yang aku pilih.

so...ni aku update blog aku balik.
up to date dengan design baru and cerita2 baru.
hope tulisan aku hari ini akan menjadi mukadimah kepada blog aku seterusnya.
doakan aku supaya tak tersasar dari niatku...
peace...

MANUSIA ZAMAN SKANG....

cam plik pn ada,,,
ada je bnda org tak puas ht ngn kite...walaupn kita tak kacau dorg,...
whats wrong with them...???
are they out of their mind???

so what!!!if my bf choose to be his gf???
gurl cam aku ni tak layk dikasihi ke???
hina sgt ke aku ni.....cm sial je mulot korg...

aku luah kat sini...
spe trasa mmposla....
korg kutuk blkg...cam aku and bf aku takde ht and prasaan lak...
korg bgoz sgt ke nk ckp cmtu???

who are u to talk like that???
are u god...
is ur gf/bf is so gorgeous until u have the right to insult other person...

pleasela babe...
no body perfect...
if u think...
muka u all lawa...
body u all howt...
ht tu ckup cntik ke untuk ditayangkan???

arghhhhh...
i really dunno.....each time i upset...
i must express myself without thinking the bad thing...

all i wanna say is...
nobody perfect.....
to my bf member who pndai2 kutuk my bf...
we dont give a damn about it...

we dont live with ur praise...
and we will not die with ur insult...

remember that...b4 u open ur mouth to badmouthing...
look at urself.....
dont judge a book by its cover....

today u insult a guy who have a gf like me....
tomoror who knows....
u will fall in love with "mmg taste die".....
we will never know what happen.....

BeSt BuRfDaY eVa..--->>credit to CIK FAHMI HAFIS....

25 feb 1989...
21 years ago...
born a cute kid...
name raifana...

eh..eh....
apa aku merepek nih..
nk buat karangan biodata ke..

nope.....aku just nk stoly..
aku smbut burfday on 25 feb lpas...

but takla smbut pn...
bcoz dat day aku keje...

and then my lovely hubby...
dh sbuk plan untuk celebrate burfday esoknya...

hr memperingati kelahiran RASULULLAH...
aku g merendek ngn bf aku..

sengal2....

ahakz....
tapi takpe.....
aku tak duk umah..
tak bermakna aku lupe hr kelahiran manusia AGUNG...

on 25th nyte...
aku smbut burfday ngn my family...
makan kt luar...
dkat satu restaurant br...

nice...tema garden...
nnti aku nk wedding kat situ...

nk mam punye psl.....
daddy aku blnje mam kt situ...
aku pn ikut jele.....

and then the owner of the restaurant dpt tau...
hr tu burfday aku..
trus dia blnje kek..
ON THE HOUSE katanya...
wow....dhla smbut burfday...
dapat lak kek free sbb burfday hubby dia sm dgn aku...
thnks tu aunti HANIM sbb blnje kek...

on 26th brula aku kuar celbrate ngn my hubby lak...
kuar kul 10....
start dgn marathon wayang....

dua cite...
THE BOOK OF ELI...
ngn
THE WOLFMAN...

dua2 cite ni..okla..
yg bestnye sbb dpt spent time dgn dia yg dicintai....

hbis tgk wayang...
die blnje bnda yg slama ni aku ngidam...
SR=SECRET RECIPE...

lunch kt situ...
melayang duit dia...
fly-fly-fly-fly....
ahakz..
tp dia kata takpe..sbb ni skali skala...
lau slalu..kopak gk dia...

btul gak tu...
lau aku pn aku kopak....
and then kitorg cari barang...
shoping kt TS=TYMES SQUARE...

eh....btul ke ejaan tu???
biarla....

lpas hbis shopping..
sbb nk kaburi mata aku..
smgt bg note 50....
bli air kt starbuck..
sbb dia tau aku nk sgt mnum situ...

rupa2nya baik sgt sbb dia nk blikan
CIK TEDDY utk aku...
ahh..romantiknye die...
bukan kcik...
BSAR PUNYE teddy.
hahahaha...

mmg best....
pada aku...ni burfday pling bes...
coz dia ada disisi aku...

to FAHMI HAFIS...
thnks for yesterday...
im very happy with u....
and i love u so much....
may our relation stay forever coz i dont wanna loose u.....
thnks 4 d teddy...
and i will take care of it...
like i take care our relation.....
I LOVE U SO MUCH.....

14 APRIL 2010

hm...its been so long since the last time i write some notes here...

well...i only write when i have to spilled out what i don't feel right..

sometimes we've been used..
we just don't know it....

it's easy to speak in english rather than malay..
coz sometime what we wrote in english..
more beautiful than using malay..
not that i'm trying to make it look stupid..
its just that i love english more than i love malay...

but still i have my pride and my dignity in malay...
just adore the language but not the culture...

this is not what i'm trying to say..

what i'm trying to say is..
why does people dont appreciate other's????

are we just a damn slave...

nope...i have my own principe...
and i love it..
no matter what people say about me...
im still going to be myself....

no matter where we go..
there must be someone or something
that doesn't like what we do and act...

well...i really dont give a damn bout it...
u can go to hell...

im just trying to living my own life...

so...don't mess me up....
i dont live with ur money,,
but mine....

start tomorrow....new determination...
low self control and keep up the good work...

nothing else matter....
just myself and my beloved one....

that's all...

dunia kejam!!!!

well..dunia mmg kejam...
takde satu pn yg baik....

bile kite dh lalui sndiri..
barula kite sdar..
spa kawan n sapa lawan...

ahhh....aku tak kacau priuk ns org..
so i dont mind..
lau lmah..aku takleh berdiri stguh ni..

korg nk jtuhkn aku???
silakan...aku dh byk kali jatuh dan bgn sndiri..

aku tak mnyerah kalah smudah tu...

salah orgla klu korg pk aku cmtu...

aku mybe nmpk lmah..
tp at least aku tak kacau korg...

as long korang tak kacau aku..
aku takkan kacau korg..

yeah..FB just for fun..
but FB jugak leh buat sedara putus tali persaudaraan...

arena meng'expres' kan diri...tak semudah yg disangka...

mmg..dunia pnuh dgn kekejaman...
aku sorg diri..tak mampu nk brdiri sndri..

aku prlukan sokongan...

tak kiralah kawan atau parent...

they are important person in my life....

dh so many things aku tmpoh sndiri..
and still aku brdiri disini..
dibumi allah ini....

dont mess up with me please...
coz if u play rough..
i'll play ur game in the rougher way...

i dont wanna make enemy...
so leave me alone........

25 November 2010

like dream's...

it's here...

tak sangka hubungan yang dibina setahun dulu dapat bertahan sehiggan ke hari ini..

sesudah sekian lama tidak menulis luahan hati disini.

aku teringin menulis semula..

25hb november 2009.

tarikh aku berkenalan dengan sidia..

walaupun pada awalnya aku agak jual mahal.

tapi dengan kesabaran dan minat yang penuh dari dia..

akhirnya hatiku miliknya...

25hb november ini menjadi hari penyatuan dua hati..

yang pada awalnya tidak meminati satu sama lain..

setelah berbagai halangan dan dugaan yang dilalui.

akhirnya kami sampai semula di tarikh keramat ini..

setahun kemudian...

suka duka bersama...tersemat didalam memori.

kesabaran dia melayan kerenahku..

tak mungkin dapat dilupakan dalam sehari dua...

aku dialam cinta yang indah..

dan satu yang kuharapkan..

agar hubungan ini berkekalan ke jinjang pelamin..

dan seterusnya ke akhir hayat dan membawa ke syurga...

tiada apa yang lebih menggembirakan...

apabila tiba saat dia ingin mengambil langkah seterusnya denganku..

melihat keseriusannya..membuat aku terkedu..

melihat kesungguhannya dalam menjaga hubungan ini..

membuat aku terkesima...

doaku agar hubungan ini terus dilimpahi rahmat dan bertahan hingga ke akhir hayat..

amin..

to bie...thanks for being there for me..

i know im not good at speaking..

but all i can do is expressing myself by my writing..

i hope u understand how i feel bout u..

eventhough sometimes u feel like i hate u..

i dont..

i love u so much...

and u can't even describe it by words and action...

may u know...that i'll love you forever...

26 February of 2011

OMG...wake up early in the morning.

ready to go celebrate my bday with my bie.

he ask me to go out early.

he said that we are headed to KLCC.

for the first time.

he always turn his back from KLCC.

he said it was place for the rich people.

it is...the store in there is for those who had 10,000 buck in their Jimmy Choo Or Burberry Handbag...

for us..it was not a great place to hang out..

full of foreigner.but this time. because he wants to make it special.

he himself, ask me to go to the proudest building of Malaysia - KLCC.

around 11 o'clock, we arrived there,

and he ask me if i want to go to the AQUARIA.

of coz i did. so we hang around in the aquaria KLCC.

after 2 hours hanging with the fish and the weird animal from the sea.

we headed to Pizza hut to have our lunch.

while waiting for the food to come.

he said that he want to go to the toilet.

so i let him.

after a few minute he never return back.

im starting to worried. what if he want to dump me there.

starting to worry to sick.

the people around me starts to stare.

like im a pathetic girl who order pizza for herself.

OMG bie..please come back early

i couldnt bare this by myself.

please dont leave me here all by myself.

after about 15 minutes gone.

he come back.and guess what. he came with a big bag name "HAAGEN DASZ"

omg again...he bought me the Haagen Dasz ice-cream cake.

i am totally touched and amazed.

never imagine to get the cake from that company.

at least i wonder it was BASKIN ROBIN cakes.

bie..u are so sweet...

i never thought u will do this big for me..

i am so happy and we had our lunch.

everyone in the pizza hut stare.

some of them wish me the happy bday.

and other's are just looking.

let it be..i dont care because it was my damn bday..

i just wanna be happy today.

after fin eating, we go aroung KLCC to hurt our own leg.

nothing other's...

late in the evening, we are starting to tired.

we had our evening tea.

while resting,he gave me another suprise..

he pulled out a ring from his pocket.

again...OMG..i thought..is he proposing.

and he said,suprise..

this is the simbol that u are mine.

"it is not TOMEI or WAH CHAN..but i hope u like it as this is my love for you."

awww...he is so romantic...

i love you bie.

you made me laugh,cry and worried today.

u are the best at mixing my feeling.

and u are the best for making me smile.

making me laugh..and worst making me sad.

but i love you for all of that..

and this note.i give it to you.

to show that i want to remember all the memories.

again.

I LOVE YOU SO MUCH...

and thank you bie for celebrating my bday bie.

this is my best bday ever.

p/s: a lot of credit to my parent who giving me the best gift yesterday.

to kak moon who make me suprise..

to kak anang, kak zue and kak ieda..for buying those lovely cake.

and to all who wish for me..

most credit is given to my bie..

thanks a lot and love u all...