25 November 2010

like dream's...

it's here...

tak sangka hubungan yang dibina setahun dulu dapat bertahan sehiggan ke hari ini..

sesudah sekian lama tidak menulis luahan hati disini.

aku teringin menulis semula..

25hb november 2009.

tarikh aku berkenalan dengan sidia..

walaupun pada awalnya aku agak jual mahal.

tapi dengan kesabaran dan minat yang penuh dari dia..

akhirnya hatiku miliknya...

25hb november ini menjadi hari penyatuan dua hati..

yang pada awalnya tidak meminati satu sama lain..

setelah berbagai halangan dan dugaan yang dilalui.

akhirnya kami sampai semula di tarikh keramat ini..

setahun kemudian...

suka duka bersama...tersemat didalam memori.

kesabaran dia melayan kerenahku..

tak mungkin dapat dilupakan dalam sehari dua...

aku dialam cinta yang indah..

dan satu yang kuharapkan..

agar hubungan ini berkekalan ke jinjang pelamin..

dan seterusnya ke akhir hayat dan membawa ke syurga...

tiada apa yang lebih menggembirakan...

apabila tiba saat dia ingin mengambil langkah seterusnya denganku..

melihat keseriusannya..membuat aku terkedu..

melihat kesungguhannya dalam menjaga hubungan ini..

membuat aku terkesima...

doaku agar hubungan ini terus dilimpahi rahmat dan bertahan hingga ke akhir hayat..

amin..

to bie...thanks for being there for me..

i know im not good at speaking..

but all i can do is expressing myself by my writing..

i hope u understand how i feel bout u..

eventhough sometimes u feel like i hate u..

i dont..

i love u so much...

and u can't even describe it by words and action...

may u know...that i'll love you forever...

26 February of 2011

OMG...wake up early in the morning.

ready to go celebrate my bday with my bie.

he ask me to go out early.

he said that we are headed to KLCC.

for the first time.

he always turn his back from KLCC.

he said it was place for the rich people.

it is...the store in there is for those who had 10,000 buck in their Jimmy Choo Or Burberry Handbag...

for us..it was not a great place to hang out..

full of foreigner.but this time. because he wants to make it special.

he himself, ask me to go to the proudest building of Malaysia - KLCC.

around 11 o'clock, we arrived there,

and he ask me if i want to go to the AQUARIA.

of coz i did. so we hang around in the aquaria KLCC.

after 2 hours hanging with the fish and the weird animal from the sea.

we headed to Pizza hut to have our lunch.

while waiting for the food to come.

he said that he want to go to the toilet.

so i let him.

after a few minute he never return back.

im starting to worried. what if he want to dump me there.

starting to worry to sick.

the people around me starts to stare.

like im a pathetic girl who order pizza for herself.

OMG bie..please come back early

i couldnt bare this by myself.

please dont leave me here all by myself.

after about 15 minutes gone.

he come back.and guess what. he came with a big bag name "HAAGEN DASZ"

omg again...he bought me the Haagen Dasz ice-cream cake.

i am totally touched and amazed.

never imagine to get the cake from that company.

at least i wonder it was BASKIN ROBIN cakes.

bie..u are so sweet...

i never thought u will do this big for me..

i am so happy and we had our lunch.

everyone in the pizza hut stare.

some of them wish me the happy bday.

and other's are just looking.

let it be..i dont care because it was my damn bday..

i just wanna be happy today.

after fin eating, we go aroung KLCC to hurt our own leg.

nothing other's...

late in the evening, we are starting to tired.

we had our evening tea.

while resting,he gave me another suprise..

he pulled out a ring from his pocket.

again...OMG..i thought..is he proposing.

and he said,suprise..

this is the simbol that u are mine.

"it is not TOMEI or WAH CHAN..but i hope u like it as this is my love for you."

awww...he is so romantic...

i love you bie.

you made me laugh,cry and worried today.

u are the best at mixing my feeling.

and u are the best for making me smile.

making me laugh..and worst making me sad.

but i love you for all of that..

and this note.i give it to you.

to show that i want to remember all the memories.

again.

I LOVE YOU SO MUCH...

and thank you bie for celebrating my bday bie.

this is my best bday ever.

p/s: a lot of credit to my parent who giving me the best gift yesterday.

to kak moon who make me suprise..

to kak anang, kak zue and kak ieda..for buying those lovely cake.

and to all who wish for me..

most credit is given to my bie..

thanks a lot and love u all...

ku bukan milikmu lagi...

Takkan Bisa Diriku
jadi Sperti Yang Kau Mau
karna Diriku Bukan Milikmu Lagi
..Heyya..Hey..Yah..

yang Takkan Pernah Terhapus
dan Tak Terlupakan Dari Dirimu
lelaki Yang Pernah Bersamaku
dan Mencintaiku Sepenuh Hatimu
tapi Ternyata Kau Pergi
tinggalkan Diriku
cinta Dan Sluruh Mimpiku

kau Takkan Bisa Jadikan Diriku
seperti Yang Kau Mau
karna Ku Bukan Milikmu
aku Adalah Wanita Yang Pernah
kau Sakiti, Tapi Kau Tahu
ku Bukan Milikmu Lagi


takkan Pernah Kusesali Dan
aku Ragukan Keputusan Ini
sebab Hidup Takkan Berhenti
sampai Disini Hanya Karna Dirimu
tapi Ternyata Kau Pergi
tinggalkan Diriku Cintaku
dan Sluruh Mimpiku

AKU kekasih MU yang tak dianggap

AKU mentari tapi tak menghangatkan MU
AKU pelangi tak memberi warna di hidup MU
AKU sang bulan tak menerangi malam MU
AKU lah bintang yang hilang dikala kegelapan

selalu itu yang KAU ucapkan padaku
sebagai kekasih yang tak dianggap aku hanya bisa
mencuba mengalah
menahan setiap amarah

aku sang bulan tak menerangi malammu
akulah bintang yang hilang di kala kegelapan
sebagai kekasih yang tak dianggap
aku hanya bisa mencoba mengalah
menahan setiap amarah
sebagai kekasih yang tak dianggap aku hanya bisa
mencoba bersabar ku yakin kau kan berubah

sebagai kekasih yang tak dianggap
aku hanya bisa mencuba mengalah
menahan setiap amarah
sebagai kekasih yang tak dianggap
aku hanya bisa
mencoba bersabar..
ku yakin kau kan berubah...

if i were a boy

If I were a boy
even just for a day
I'd roll out of bed in the morning
and throw on what I wanted and go

Drink beer with the guys
and chase after girls
I'd kick it with who I wanted
and I'd never get confronted for it
cause they stick up for me

If I were a boy
I think I could understand
How it feels to love a girl
I swear I'd be a better man
I'd listen to her
Cause I know how it hurts
When you lose the one you wanted
Cause he's taking you for granted
And everything you had got destroyed

If I were a boy
I would turn off my phone
Tell everyone it's broken
so they'd think that I was sleeping alone

I’d put myself first
and make the rules as I go
Cause I know that she’ll be faithful,
waiting for me to come home, to come home.

If I were a boy
I think I could understand
How it feels to love a girl
I swear I'd be a better man
I'd listen to her
Cause I know how it hurts
When you lose the one you wanted
Cause he's taking you for granted
And everything you had got destroyed

It's a little too late for you to come back
Say it's just a mistake,
think i'd forgive you like that
If you thought I would wait for you
you thought wrong

But you're just a boy
You don't understand
and you don't understand, ohhhh
How it feels to love a girl
Someday you wish you were a better man
You don't listen to her
You don't care how it hurts
Until you lose the one you wanted
Cause you're taking her for granted
And everything you had got destroyed

but your just a boy