14 APRIL 2010

hm...its been so long since the last time i write some notes here...

well...i only write when i have to spilled out what i don't feel right..

sometimes we've been used..
we just don't know it....

it's easy to speak in english rather than malay..
coz sometime what we wrote in english..
more beautiful than using malay..
not that i'm trying to make it look stupid..
its just that i love english more than i love malay...

but still i have my pride and my dignity in malay...
just adore the language but not the culture...

this is not what i'm trying to say..

what i'm trying to say is..
why does people dont appreciate other's????

are we just a damn slave...

nope...i have my own principe...
and i love it..
no matter what people say about me...
im still going to be myself....

no matter where we go..
there must be someone or something
that doesn't like what we do and act...

well...i really dont give a damn bout it...
u can go to hell...

im just trying to living my own life...

so...don't mess me up....
i dont live with ur money,,
but mine....

start tomorrow....new determination...
low self control and keep up the good work...

nothing else matter....
just myself and my beloved one....

that's all...

dunia kejam!!!!

well..dunia mmg kejam...
takde satu pn yg baik....

bile kite dh lalui sndiri..
barula kite sdar..
spa kawan n sapa lawan...

ahhh....aku tak kacau priuk ns org..
so i dont mind..
lau lmah..aku takleh berdiri stguh ni..

korg nk jtuhkn aku???
silakan...aku dh byk kali jatuh dan bgn sndiri..

aku tak mnyerah kalah smudah tu...

salah orgla klu korg pk aku cmtu...

aku mybe nmpk lmah..
tp at least aku tak kacau korg...

as long korang tak kacau aku..
aku takkan kacau korg..

yeah..FB just for fun..
but FB jugak leh buat sedara putus tali persaudaraan...

arena meng'expres' kan diri...tak semudah yg disangka...

mmg..dunia pnuh dgn kekejaman...
aku sorg diri..tak mampu nk brdiri sndri..

aku prlukan sokongan...

tak kiralah kawan atau parent...

they are important person in my life....

dh so many things aku tmpoh sndiri..
and still aku brdiri disini..
dibumi allah ini....

dont mess up with me please...
coz if u play rough..
i'll play ur game in the rougher way...

i dont wanna make enemy...
so leave me alone........

25 November 2010

like dream's...

it's here...

tak sangka hubungan yang dibina setahun dulu dapat bertahan sehiggan ke hari ini..

sesudah sekian lama tidak menulis luahan hati disini.

aku teringin menulis semula..

25hb november 2009.

tarikh aku berkenalan dengan sidia..

walaupun pada awalnya aku agak jual mahal.

tapi dengan kesabaran dan minat yang penuh dari dia..

akhirnya hatiku miliknya...

25hb november ini menjadi hari penyatuan dua hati..

yang pada awalnya tidak meminati satu sama lain..

setelah berbagai halangan dan dugaan yang dilalui.

akhirnya kami sampai semula di tarikh keramat ini..

setahun kemudian...

suka duka bersama...tersemat didalam memori.

kesabaran dia melayan kerenahku..

tak mungkin dapat dilupakan dalam sehari dua...

aku dialam cinta yang indah..

dan satu yang kuharapkan..

agar hubungan ini berkekalan ke jinjang pelamin..

dan seterusnya ke akhir hayat dan membawa ke syurga...

tiada apa yang lebih menggembirakan...

apabila tiba saat dia ingin mengambil langkah seterusnya denganku..

melihat keseriusannya..membuat aku terkedu..

melihat kesungguhannya dalam menjaga hubungan ini..

membuat aku terkesima...

doaku agar hubungan ini terus dilimpahi rahmat dan bertahan hingga ke akhir hayat..

amin..

to bie...thanks for being there for me..

i know im not good at speaking..

but all i can do is expressing myself by my writing..

i hope u understand how i feel bout u..

eventhough sometimes u feel like i hate u..

i dont..

i love u so much...

and u can't even describe it by words and action...

may u know...that i'll love you forever...

26 February of 2011

OMG...wake up early in the morning.

ready to go celebrate my bday with my bie.

he ask me to go out early.

he said that we are headed to KLCC.

for the first time.

he always turn his back from KLCC.

he said it was place for the rich people.

it is...the store in there is for those who had 10,000 buck in their Jimmy Choo Or Burberry Handbag...

for us..it was not a great place to hang out..

full of foreigner.but this time. because he wants to make it special.

he himself, ask me to go to the proudest building of Malaysia - KLCC.

around 11 o'clock, we arrived there,

and he ask me if i want to go to the AQUARIA.

of coz i did. so we hang around in the aquaria KLCC.

after 2 hours hanging with the fish and the weird animal from the sea.

we headed to Pizza hut to have our lunch.

while waiting for the food to come.

he said that he want to go to the toilet.

so i let him.

after a few minute he never return back.

im starting to worried. what if he want to dump me there.

starting to worry to sick.

the people around me starts to stare.

like im a pathetic girl who order pizza for herself.

OMG bie..please come back early

i couldnt bare this by myself.

please dont leave me here all by myself.

after about 15 minutes gone.

he come back.and guess what. he came with a big bag name "HAAGEN DASZ"

omg again...he bought me the Haagen Dasz ice-cream cake.

i am totally touched and amazed.

never imagine to get the cake from that company.

at least i wonder it was BASKIN ROBIN cakes.

bie..u are so sweet...

i never thought u will do this big for me..

i am so happy and we had our lunch.

everyone in the pizza hut stare.

some of them wish me the happy bday.

and other's are just looking.

let it be..i dont care because it was my damn bday..

i just wanna be happy today.

after fin eating, we go aroung KLCC to hurt our own leg.

nothing other's...

late in the evening, we are starting to tired.

we had our evening tea.

while resting,he gave me another suprise..

he pulled out a ring from his pocket.

again...OMG..i thought..is he proposing.

and he said,suprise..

this is the simbol that u are mine.

"it is not TOMEI or WAH CHAN..but i hope u like it as this is my love for you."

awww...he is so romantic...

i love you bie.

you made me laugh,cry and worried today.

u are the best at mixing my feeling.

and u are the best for making me smile.

making me laugh..and worst making me sad.

but i love you for all of that..

and this note.i give it to you.

to show that i want to remember all the memories.

again.

I LOVE YOU SO MUCH...

and thank you bie for celebrating my bday bie.

this is my best bday ever.

p/s: a lot of credit to my parent who giving me the best gift yesterday.

to kak moon who make me suprise..

to kak anang, kak zue and kak ieda..for buying those lovely cake.

and to all who wish for me..

most credit is given to my bie..

thanks a lot and love u all...

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